it's not what i didn't feel, it's what i didn't show not that i didn't care, it's that i didn't know if my thoughts were green tea...i'd have gallons.i thought work will keep me busy and free my mind from all these nonsense thinking and blah3 but nooooooo even in my short period of free time i'm thinking of so many things i can literally drown in my pool of thoughts.i miss school,all the familiar faces and things that used to be routine to me.i miss having to worry only about rushing for submission and what to have for lunch.now i have to worry about graduation,work,uni admission & basically the rest of my life.2 months plus more to my big 20 & i admit...it feels a whole lot different.i do feel sorta 'older' both physically and mentally now.i'm actually pretty terrified about what lies ahead but i'm keeping faith that it will all work out eventually.i have my absolute faith in Him so insya'Allah it'll all turn out in my favour.amin :') they say you can still score even when there's a goalkeeper...but in the first place,why choose a guarded goalpost? i can't help worrying & being extremely anxious about this.i reallyreallyreally want this so bad it's unreal.i just need my acceptance letter asap.cos it's a reassurance and sorta a pat on my back for my effort and i just can't afford to disappoint my parents.this is it.NTU...mail me maybe? :') alhamdulillah i'm employed @ chewy junior @ lot1 :) working likka mad girl learning the basics of making tasty puffs hoping i can last a month & maybe,just maybe...three for now all i'm sure of is... i NEED to find a comfy pair of shoes for work,a big fat MUST & btw i do love the journey to & fro work lotsa interesting people i can get to see mrt-last-for-a-few-minute crushes are so cool, i swear ^^ currently unemployed,unnoticed & unattractive
be back when i change either one of these